I fell off of the horse that I was riding today. Lost control on my part, and took a tumble onto my bum and hips. It hurt like f***! I was fine for a while, but once my adrenaline wore off, I had to lie down in a semi-public place because I felt like I was going to faint. It was both scary and embarrassing! - I did not realize that my body could go into such a strange, delayed state of shock like that. Even once I felt a bit better, my muscles gave out, and walking was very painful. Not to mention that one of my “cheeks” is completely purple! :o
I do not have a Facebook, so I could not grumble about it there … Sorry for the bother!
But … DAMN.
Just looking through your photos inspires me. Someone re-blogged one of yours that has your measurements on it, and we are exactly the same. The way you portray yourself is so beautiful and you seem to really own your body which truly inspires me to do the same. I think you're stunning and please don't ever stop modeling!
Hello, angel! Thank you for your kind words - YOU inspire ME!
Re: “carrying [oneself]” - I think that my body is the product of my lifestyle. It has changed, it changes, and it will continue to change! Do you find this to be true as well? Currently, I am quite active - various hobbies keep my body occupied. But this does not automatically mean that I look like a celebrity either. I feel like we as are so bombarded by certain fitness ideals that muscle can only take shape on women as “long and lean”, you know? But if you are sporty, or walk a lot, or strive to be active for a greater good (such as in work, or taking care of a family, etc.), then THAT should be what matters, right?!
- I am just rambling, but hope to hear from you again soon. And please continue to find solace in the use and appearance of your body!
This week has done a lot of damage to my self-confidence … so, I am feeling low. Still, if I am aware of this, then I can put negative thoughts into perspective … And, worse can always happen, right, so I just have to be grateful for what I have at the moment …
I am angry, sad, disappointed, and feel insignificant.
Ahh! I miss when I was productive, proud, energetic, and excited about tomorrow! Blargh.